One month old

I'm starting to finally feel like myself again. Most 0f the pain from the stitches has subsided, thanks to a lot of medication. I'm really enjoying the time that I'm spending with my daughter. Right now I'm still on maternity leave and haven't yet started school, so I'm home all day with her. She sleeps so many hours in the day that I find myself wanting to sleep too. Just so the time will past to when I can hold her and play with her again. We sleep downstairs on the most comfortable couch in the world. Well I do anyways, and she sleeps in her car seat.

All she's doing now is sleeping, & eating. She doesn't make much noise yet except when she cries. She wakes me up in the middle of the night at least 2 or 3 times. I can't wait till she starts sleeping through the night. She's been smiling now for a couple of weeks.

I love being a mother. I've gotten over the pain of breastfeeding coz...ha...I stopped all together. I just couldn't take it anymore. I cried a lot the first couple weeks, coz I was so mad at myself that I couldn't do it. If there was one thing I was adamant about it was breastfeeding. But after some time, I saw that she was getting chubbier and chubbier. As long as she's healthy I'm happy.

I've also gotten over my mild case of postpartum depression. Now I'm just happy overall. I finally have the daughter that I've been hoping for.