Confused

i don't know how much longer i'll be able to take these mind games he playing with me. One second he pist at me, and won't even look at me. The next second he calling me telling me he misses us. he just drives me absolutely crazy!!!

then he has the nerve to ask how much longer it is i'll be mad at him. i honestly don't know. sometimes i think he just wants to have his cake and eat it too. like he wants to have the title of a husband and a father but he doesn't want any of the responsibilities. he has a lot to learn on how to be a good husband and father. it was naive of me to think that i would be able to fix his broken soul. i've tried for many years and it's just blown up in my face over and over. i give up. if he wants to fix this then it's all on him. i'm willing to take my faults in all of this but it's time that he does too.

it broke my heart when stailynne asked me where her daddy was after he dropped her off. i mean what am i suppose to say to her??? that he misses us but still wishes to live somewhere else? yes...so not fair to stailynne and i. he's selfish.

i told him that he needs to deal with his issues before we can save this marriage. he asked me to give him the number to make the appointment and he'll go. i hope he takes it seriously and that he finally gets to the core of all his anger. i hope he finds a way to just throw it away, so that i can finally get the man that i fell in love with back.

[sigh]