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Lately, with the approval of the loan, i've been thinking about how i'm gonna decorate my new house. This is easier said than done. It has been a daunting task so far trying to organize everything in my mind. i've been watching a lot of HGtv just to prepare myself, but honestly i'm still confused as hell.

i've been looking online for any pieces that "move" me, and i have found some from pier 1 that i like. i guess i'm just afraid that with all the work and money i'm gonna put into this house that it comes out nice and not like i just threw a whole bunch of stuff together.

The only thing i'm sure of at this point is that i'm gonna have dark wood furniture, beige walls with a blue accent wall, blue, black, and beige throw pillows, blue curtains, a rug, some wall art, and some plants/flowers.

i really hope it turns it just as nice it is in my mind.

It's coming along...

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Am i wrong?

Am i wrong and stupid to think that someday he'll change? I feel more sorry for my baby girl than myself coz she's so young. She doesn't know any better. All she know is how to be a toddler. I mean i highly doubt than anyone here knows of a 22 month old that is well behaved and does everything that she is suppose to do. That is almost impossible, and it's wrong that she has to be punished for his unrealistic beliefs of what a toddler is "suppose" to act like.

And he has the damn audacity to ask me why she doesn't like him, or why she says "NO" when he asks her for a kiss or to go to him.

This is the last time i ever ask him to give my daughter a bath. Yes a bath. Something so simple as this he has to make into a hug commotion where she's crying so much that she's at the point of barfing up all of the dinner she ate, and me screaming at him to "SHUT UP!" So she's crying already and he's making it worse, by asking why she's crying. Like she's gonna answer!

I have no idea what i'm gonna do about him. I know that if he doesn't change soon, that Stailynne WILL hate her dad as she gets older. I would know.

At times like these, I wonder if I'm stupid for hoping that he'll change someday. I hope, for the sake of our family, that he does.

22 Months

She's getting bigger everyday. My parents are saying that she's growing taller and taller overnight!

She's adding more words to her vocabulary today, though she's not yet talking in sentences. Her recent words are "peese" as in please, "su-shine away" as in sunshine away, "wok" as in work, "noodow" as in noodle...LOL! It's so surprising just how smart she is sometimes, and how great of a memory she has.

I can't believe that she'll be 2 in two months. Right now i'm planning a park birthday for her, with just family and a couple of friends. I'm hoping to be able to make her birthday cake for her. I want it took look something like this:

I know that it's gonna be harder that it looks, which i means i better get started on some trial runs. They look so beautiful, and i know that making it myself will save tons of money. Then if i'm any good, I could bake cakes as a side thing to make a little bit of money =)

I'm expecting that she'll have tons of fun on her birthday coz she just loves the park. I think i've made a good choice. i hope everything turns out great.