Sometimes i think that he wants to live in the olden days where the women was always submissive and always replied "Yes dear." Sometimes i think that he just wants me to agree with everything he says and never question it. I can't have an opinion without him having one of his famous trantrums. It's getting so old, and I'm so tired. He seems to have this mentality of "If you're not with me, you're against me" which is not how a marriage is suppose to work. The reality is that a couple will never always agree. I don't know if he'll ever get it. I just don't know anymore. He his always giving me false hope. He makes me think i have control over something when he's the one that wants all the control.
He finally sold his truck, and one of the first things that came out of his mouth was "i'm going to send my mom to vietnam for vacation." I just always feel 2nd in his life.
And if we want to get technical about it, my parents have given us thousands and thousands of dollars more of help compared to her. Why is he not taking that into consideration? He just loves to put his mom on a pedestal, when she does not deserve it.
I'm just on the edge right now. If counseling doesn't help then i have to go on my way. I know there is a much happier life out there for me, even if it means that i'll be alone.
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after reading some of your posts it makes me very sad to know you are this unhappy..hope things work out for the best but you have had one wonderful come out of all this .. Stailynne. hope things get better ... if you need to get away you and your daughter are always welcome for a visit in texas... take care
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