DR. Phil

I was watching an episode of Dr. Phil yesterday. It was a part of the 'Get Real Retreat.' I was wondering...if I was on there if he would be as harsh to me as he was to some of his guests. The answer is probably yes. He would probably ask me "if you knew he had an anger problem, then why did you marry him???" I guess i was too hopeful that he would someday change and that we'd have more good days than bad. Lately it's been quite the opposite.

i feel so humilated to have said the things i said yesterday and to get nothing but silence or a distastful groan. Can you say "BURNED"?!? The worse is that it's my 'husband' that's making me feel this way. i think i'v gone through my share of emotional abuse, and what seems to be provoking it is if i have any feelings that he doesn't agree with. I know the biggest "THAT'S NOT FAIR" must be flashing in ur mind coz it usually is in mine. I'm at my lowest point right now. I want to just crawl into a little hole and be left alone, but the rational part of me won't let me do that to myself. I just need to get away to think. On my next weekend off, i think i'm just gonna drive. Drive and see where that takes me.

i honestly don't know if even Dr. Phil can help me now.